I am just trying to find my way about things again.
Why can’t you get messages/asks through the tumblr app? *sigh*
I am completely frustrated right now (yeah, but thanks not my normal mode of frustration). I am in the process of moving
right now, except that I’m not really in the process. I got my job offer finally and gave notice at my current job, but now I am sitting around waiting to see if I get the apartment that I want (the one that I applied for because they all have application fees and thus make you lose either your time or your money because if they turn you down you get your money back but if you decide that you don’t want the apartment then they keep your money). Where I’m moving isn’t too far away but it is in another state and it appears that they do background checks on everyone there for any reason. Which I guess makes me feel good, but in the state that I’ve always lived in I would just fill out an application and they would say ‘ok give me all your money’ (please note the single tick and not double tick there) and they would give me a key. So I’m sitting here wanting to take a load of crap over to ostensibly my new place but I can’t. A lot of the things I have yet to pack are my everyday things. So here I sit venting to tumblr rather than doing anything to move my life along.
I don’t know what made me decide to take this picture of myself on that particular morning (Jan 2012). I had just woken up from a very bad dream. In my dream (I’m even getting choked up now thinking about it) my dog that I had growing up (a Collie) was out playing around with a pack of other dogs. I knelt down and she came running up to me and was trying to climb up into my lap. She was pressed up against me and not going crazy but very happy to see me. She licked my chin and then ran off to go play again. I woke up a wreck that morning, took my shower, got dressed and then took this picture while my emotions were still raw. I know that dream was triggered because I was thinking of my other dogs that I won’t ever be able to see again since they are with my ex.
I think this is one of my favorite pictures of myself (of course someone else told me I look like a creeper in it, so what do I know?).